清明

went to 光明山 just now with my dad and sister..



why? cos its 清明..

hmmmm..

unlike other family or most of the family

my family doesn't go there together..

it used to be only my dad going there to pay respect to my ah gong ah ma..

the place was less crowded compare to last year

maybe is because it's in the afternoon

or maybe is because of the rain..

i donno..

anyway.. my dad insisted me going to see my ah gong and ah ma 骨灰

when i saw the picture of them on the 骨灰罐

i felt something..

not something spooky.. but something emotional..

my ah ma died very early..

i donno if i were born when she passed away..

but i remember seeing her photo @ my ah gong place..

it's been years since i last saw her picture.. hmmmm..


and for my ah gong..

i can't remember him well

not his face..

all i can remember was that he treated us very well..

every weekend when we visited him (when i was very young)

he always prepare a lot of food for us..

i remember sitting with him on his favorites rocking chair..

i remember him playing games with me..

and i remember the day he died.......

my uncle was bringing me and my brother to visit my ah gong..

but when we reach the block.. we saw ambulance

and when we reach the house..

i saw my ah gong lying on the floor back facing up..

i couldn't see his face.. i was too young to know what happen..

the paramedic told my uncle that my ah gong fell and he was alone.. and was too late......

hmmm..

i really miss him....

really..

really..